a colored spectrum

travel light

you left for melbourne last Wednesday nite.
supposedly, you should have been back already.
okay, maybe you came back and flew off again in 24 hours..
your schedule's been really packed for the last few months.

i don't know why, i can't explain why but i am feeling upset and flustered.
it happens everytime i don't hear from you,
don't know where you are or how you're doing over an extended period.
i don't like to be guessing and second-guessing, over-exercising the benefit of doubt.

it is also neither appropriate nor fair of me to request that of you.
we owe no obligations to each other,
there is neither the need to share everything or anything with each other,
nor to shower any care towards each other's feelings too.

everything i do or feel for you is initiated out of my willingness.
hence, its consequences i accept.
the feeling of being in the unknown, of being uncertain and insecure,
but also the feeling of joy and bliss when we are together,
every moment is a moment to be savoured and lived.

life is such that, we navigate through infinite uncertainties and ambivalence,
not being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel,
not knowing where we are going or how we are getting there.
all we know is:
that we are capable of learning and adapting flexibly to the changing circumstances.

thus, amidst these shifting conditions,it is indeed prudent to not form long term loyalties, commitment and emotions for each other.

travel light.

experience life like a free-spirited traveller, with only a small carry-onboard baggage,
containing the bare neccessities to survive.
then when it's time for us to let go and leave some expired persons or possesions behind,
we will be able to do so without suffering a tremendous amount of heartache,
while taking with us beautiful memories and a more enriched self.

posted by Veen @ 21:43